Speaking as someone who travels with a bunch of people with a sordid and muddled past, true redemption is nae easy to come by. Do all the good you want, prove your new life is your true life, sew the seeds of rightousness. However in the back of peoples minds, always and forever, will be the anticipation for "the other shoe to drop". All you can do is live your life to the best of your ability, stay on the side of truth and light and give people no more cause for disdain for you. Some people, alas such as yourself, have treaded much farther off the path than others, and the journey back is difficult, if not wholly impossible. Personally, in the very core of my being I loathe and despise you, but can tolerate your existance so long as it persists as long as you remain on the side of the light. While you may have paid your debt legally, cosmicly the scales are still far from balanced.
-Redcloud